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Taru Marcellus's avatar

“Sometimes, we allow fear of the unknown to keep us in situations that no longer serve us.” <— the crux of it. Thank you for sharing

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Tee Moore's avatar

This is the bar!

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Rachel Leeke Alexis's avatar

I could feel your ache from so long ago while reading this. This part stuck out: I accepted that though he was my first love, he wouldn’t be my last.

There’s so much power in moving on to allow what’s meant for you a place to land.

Thank you for sharing something so vulnerable. I can relate as I stayed in relationship too long fearing nothing better would ever reach me.

I’m glad I was wrong.

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Moken Marsai's avatar

Thank you so much for reading Rachel and leaving such a thoughtful comment. I'm glad you were able to find the love you deserve ♥️

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India Monee''s avatar

Though he was my first love, he wouldn’t be my last!! That hit. I’ve been single for about 3 years after a 4 year relationship & resonate with this so much. We were crippling each other & since, I feel so alive & free. I’m grateful I left.

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Moken Marsai's avatar

I'm so happy to hear that! Sometimes it can be so hard to leave a relationship with someone we've outgrown. I can tell you that it only gets better.

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Alicia Joyful's avatar

This is beautiful such an expression of being a human and going through all the hard things to come back to ourselves.

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Moken Marsai's avatar

I'm so glad you enjoyed it Alicia ♥️

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Miss Sassbox's avatar

both heartbreaking and beautiful. thank you for sharing it with us.

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Moken Marsai's avatar

Thank you so much for reading ♥️

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Rev. Lotus La Loba's avatar

There was so much passion in this! Whew!

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Moken Marsai's avatar

Thanks so much for taking the time to read and comment. So much appreciated!

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Iris Canela's avatar

I deeply resonated with this message. It’s truly a painful feeling and it brings up waves of emotions. Yet there is hope. Hope in getting to know ourselves deeply and making room for letting ourselves become who we are meant to be. Letting go is a powerful tool to becoming

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sophie's avatar

This was such a comforting read. Currently going through this, so thank you🩷

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Moken Marsai's avatar

Sending you love on your healing journey.

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ANGEL's avatar

I could feel the power in your writing of letting go, the freedom of letting go! I'm in this stage of life and its a beautiful journey.

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Moken Marsai's avatar

I agree it is indeed a beautiful journey. However, it can be hard to see it sometimes when your heart is aching. Thank you for spending time with my words ❤️

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EL's Archive's avatar

Currently going through the growing pains of this right now. I said I needed a break at first but after reuniting there’s that same eerily feeling that I just don’t belong here anymore. And it’s hurts deeply especially when you have so much love a person. But I can’t keep fighting with myself. The only real reason I’m holding is fear. Love wants me to let go.

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Moken Marsai's avatar

I know exactly what it feels like to be in that space. After I decided to leave, it took me a year before I finally had the courage to leave my relationship. Not to mention the countless times I left and returned over the fourteen years we were together. So many people questioned why I stayed so long, but I had to muster up the courage. I was afraid that he was my last chance at love. If I left that, I wouldn't find anyone to love me again. But in going, I found myself again, which has been the best gift.

You can do this.

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Emerald Garden's avatar

Six months into walking away from a 6.5 year relationship and I still struggle to grasp that he’s not “the one” I hope to be as happy as you are some day.

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Mennlay's avatar

really fitting that this came up on my feed as i just recently had to cut the chord with someone i love deeply—hardest thing i’ve ever done in my life. but your words are so grounding and affirming. thank you 🤎

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Moken Marsai's avatar

I am so happy my words could play a small part in your healing ♥️

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Tanisha Woods's avatar

Wow this gives me hope and brings in a sense of excitement for the unknown for me. I just got out of a 7 year relationship with my ex, we have three children together and I’ve been single for 8 months now. It’s hard for me to imagine my future without him because I wanted things to work so badly but I’ve had to accept that we are both on two different paths and our values, goals, and visions don’t align with one another anymore. This is inspiring. Thank you for sharing a vulnerable piece of your journey with us🤎

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Moken Marsai's avatar

I feel so much for you Tanisha. Ending a relationship where children are involved can't be easy, it demonstrates incredible strength. Sending you love on your healing journey.

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pineapple🎀💫's avatar

You're so brave because genuinely, I'd rather die

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Shailla Chand's avatar

I had learned the lessons I needed to move forward to the love I desired to co-create.

One of the hardest things to accept, the feeling of that finality and trust that what you want exists and that it exists for you. I love where you've gotten yourself to and we can't begin to imagine where we'll still go. Life needs to know we're willing to make those hard decisions and you proved it in a really big way.

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Sumeya's avatar

Love is many things, but at its core love is a decision. And we have to be the first people we choose. The first people we say yes to. Thank you for sharing, this was beautiful.

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